Because of You Only

Because of you I am whole. And although this world is so imperfect, I have grown more tolerant of its imperfections. Even though my daily walk through life bears witness to so much inequity I no longer yearn to understand justice. I have learned to take pain the way I accept the inevitable surrender of my body to old age.

Let me take all of that bravely in this lifetime. I sincerely believe that I can take them all. Without you however, the colors maybe the same but the luster of my eyes will not be. Blue will not be as brilliant as the sky nor red as crimson as ruby. Gold will not shine as fiery as the sunset nor black as fathomless as a starless night.

I probably lived several or even dozens of lifetimes; but this lifetime matters to me. It matters to me dearly. It is as important as the question of crossing the boundaries of heaven and hell. For in my heart I know this lifetime is the only one I can spend with you.

Do I fear? I sense fear of course. I fear not so much in dying but in crossing death without the certainty that you will be with me in my next life. You cannot make a promise. I cannot leave you guarantees. I know only the borders of life and death, but not so much what’s beyond them.

You’re with me. It’s all that matters to me. We will grow old together.
This is a truth I love to accept. I can lay shriveled in my old age. Even in my infirmity you will still see in my eyes the light that burns in my spirit.

In my eyes you will see the treasure I keep that will never change in me. You will see the love I alone can give you. A love to surround and color your life for as long as you need it. I will love you with the last ounce of energy I can give. I am not so sure about forever anymore. I am too pragmatic for that. But I know with certainty that I have until the last moment of this lifetime to offer you. My burning love that shines for you only… Because of you I have loved… Because of you I have lived… Because of you only.

For the love to last this lifetime…